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MY POEMS
My Poems and Sketches
New poems will be updated. Many of these are from several years ago when I was dating the girl of my dreams and some are from my daily experiences.
The Longest Walk
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The dreaded day of the year is back
Waking me up to reality once again
The day lasts longer than any other
Reminding me of you on that chilly afternoon.
It was the longest walk I ever made
The grass was turning brown, covered by fallen leaves
Dazed and weak, I could not move a step
Only blury voices and black images surrounded me.
Someone nudged me forward making me fall to my knees
Those fresh flowers flew out of my hand
The wind blew several pieces toward you
My heart and soul were also blown into pieces.
Ever since then you are gone one day a year
Only on that day I realize I have lost a part of me
364 days you are still alive with me, mind and soul
But today I must walk a long reality with your favorite flowers in hand
To Die I Was Afraid
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To die I was afraid
A mystery He wants, sending no invitations
He gives no answers, He has no rules
Blind yet sees the horror on our faces
Ponder and worry yet never ease
Do not fear or grieve for him
The rich, the needy, the famed, the common
The benevolent, the evil, He wants them all
To die I was afraid
The road may be long or short
BUT TONIGHT THE DARKNESS I NO LONGER DREAD
DARKNESS COME IF YOU WANT TO
Tonight You See
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A mid July evening, darkness slowly fills the sky
We enjoy the shining stars, each one glowing
The light wind blowing against our bodies
As I tell you how bright the stars seem this night
The darker the sky, the brighter the stars
I can almost feel each star falling upon us
Amazed by the site, I want you to enjoy the beauty
As I have done during these weeks by your side
Rock and marble you were once made
Standing motionless but not emotionless
Tonight, your heart can feel the presence of stars
Tonight, you can actually see and hear me clear
Waves
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Waves in the blue ocean
move you closer to me
against the beach splashing louder
your reflection in the water
Waves in the green water
move you further from me
as the boat floats empty
night falls without any sounds
Look beyond the colorless waves
the horizontal line extends forever
someday that line comes closer
but today distant and disappearing
The Path Ahead
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I must keep going
To see the path ahead
The road may slow me down
Yet with confidence I walk
The gate is high and sharp
Yet to climb I will try
Near Death I do not fear
For the freedom is near
Cuffed, silenced and killed
But my actions forever reveal
Never give up for democracy
I will always find a way for you
Soon To Be Free
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Like a fish in a lonesome tank
Far away from the busy stream
Like a tiger in a dark cage
Trapped away from the sunny forest
Far away from my freedom
Trapped away from where I belong
Like that fish I swim aimlessly
Like that tiger I roar vigorously
Like a bird roaming the colorful tropics
Broken away from the cold cage
Like a lion out in the vast grassland
Escaped from the metal chains
Broken away from the past
Escaped from my old life
Like that bird I fly high
Like that lion I run fast
Together into the Night
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Smiling only in this dream
Hoping that it will never end
Mystify incessant blurry images
Upon on lofty and astonishing clouds
Fly above with these wings looking down
So lovely are these mortals hand in hand
Smiling with the forbidden fruit
Two bodies emerge becoming as one
Together disppearing into the night
A Dove's Pair
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Floating in the distant wind.
Hoping it has never been.
Pure and white also bright.
A feather left into sight.
Hold and cherish evey night
The dove still in flight
But the love is near
So I find a pair
Memories of the Past And Dreams for the Future
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Stacks of photos in flames or water
Pages of diary became ashes or smeared
Grandma's wedding dress no longer white
Sparkling diamond ring never be found
Old souvenirs and gifts all destroyed
From birth to birthdays, graduations to weddings
And funerals, family vacations, even last night
They were memories of the past, so many of them
There's nothing tangible that remain except memories
Live the present, remember the past, hope for the future
Those brand name pricy shoes I no longer care
The childhood photos on my desk I wish I had
The present I truly treasure, for soon it'll be gone
Gone like last night, which you can not rewind
Smiles I will have, there are dreams for the future.
Your Words
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Once again I am fighting a war
Not another of your harsh words please
Without regret you spit those stabbing words
Puncturing my love leaving me heartbroken
In sorrow, in depression, in agony
Why must this always be true when we talk
Making me question why I can't get over you
Falling in love with you is not fair
God, gave me strength so I may be strong
Let me go on and be free from you
Bring me happiness and the love I deserve
I want to experience 1 day without pain
Over and over those words come to hunt me
Someday you will realize and regret those words
Hoped that eventually you would change your ways
But too late now, I have already said goodbye
Like that Old Book
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Like that old book few have ever read
Stuck on the shelf among millions of others
Dust upon dust never even been touched
Ancient yet pages still crisp like new
Like that old book only a few can understand
The author and perhaps one other can make sense of it
Dozens more may have tried with no such luck
Only the selected few can see the light of the old book
Like that old book, worthless yet priceless
Most get nothing even if they read the entire book
One or two may be enlightened just reading the beginning
The book searches for those very special people.
The Perfect One
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All alone sleepless and clueless
Turn and turn I lie awake
Light the candle to shine the night
For I can not rest yet another hour
Speed across the beaming room
Toward the box of letters I arrive
Analyzing your every word for the 100th time
I can picture you whispering to me once again
I can not sleep, eat nor be satisfied
A powerful drug you must be
As your new letter gently sink in
Eremophobia and philophobia I no longer dread
Tomorrow is Not Good
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Like the bright moon amid so many stars
That I wish to see every night
Tomorrow awaits only a few hours away
If only these precious minutes can last
Like the heavenly moon you are to me
Special yet impalpable, shiny yet distant
Tomorrow is not good because you will part
For soon you will no longer be mine
Like the lonely moon in the vast sky
That long to unite for eternity
Tomorrow has come and so have I
To follow moving shadows of the moon
Waiting Next to the Phone
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Three in the morning, awake and alone on Christmas
Violent winds pounds against the window
Heater warming the air and radio easing the mood
Yet my body shrivers and feeling tense.
Six hours lying next to the phone
Once twice three times-never dailed
Hoping it would ring by itself now
Several more times I tried but hung up.
Known you recently yet seems forever
Think of you everyhour of eveyday
Who are you anyway?
And why did you come into my life?
How do I feel about you? Who knows
How do you feel about me? I need to know
How do we feel about each other? God knows
Someday, one of us will call and let the other know.
The Last Goodbye
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Is this the last goodbye? Goodbye for the last time?
I can not do this, saying my last goodbye.
Goodbye does not come easy to me, it's not like hello
Is it over after this last goodbye? It can't end like this.
It should never be said, this last goodbye.
I never want to experience this last goodbye, never.
Goodbye, one little word with so many meanings.
ANOTHER DAY
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I gave you the dagger
Protect me you did not
The bandages slowly peel off
The wounds healed with scars
The rain came and gone
The sunshine hit my face
Tears fell but quickly vanish
Im awake for another day
February Blues
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Drops of rain still falling,heavier as time passes
Breezes of wind still blowing,louder every minute
Day into night,the sun still hides its brightness
And I,still waiting for you next to the window
One photo is all I have,it is all I need
To be reminded that I am lost in your heart
Lost forever and can not escape from you
Thinking of you even in my daily dreams
We shared something pure and true
It was something tender and sweet
My heart beats faster as you near
I can not eat, sleep or be the same
The skies are getting darker as I ponder
Will I get to express my February blues
Too many ways to say these words
Love, that's the word---Now, where are you?
Who Says Love Ain't Real
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When I hold you close in my arms
There is not anything else in this world
When I see you with a smile
I know this is something real
I will always remember this feeling I have for you
The special place where you belong in my heart
Sparkling of your eyes, softness of your hair
How can I forget a princess as beautiful as you
Dreaming of you, thinking of you, talking with you
There is nothing more refreshing than loving you
These words are not easy for me to reveal
But I think our eyes already say enough
Who says love ain't Real
It worked for us like a fairytale
We are drawn together as one
And forever we are changed by true love.
Tears on Our Old Photo
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Slowly drop by drop, these tears cover our faces
Tears that almost smear the color out of the photo
Yet still i hold it tight to next to me
This old photo, the only passage to our past
Why must young lovers always be this way
Falling in love-so so easy
Staying in love-so so hard
Forever in love-so impossible
Yesterday we were in love like Romeo and Juliet
Our eyes could not stop admiring each other
Our souls could not be apart even for one minute
We were meant to be forever together this way
Today we are apart separated by the blue ocean sea
We were like 2 ships that passed through only by chance
Realizing we were never meant to be
On we go to the next-will this be the one?
Without You
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Knees together, head down, eyes shut, arms in, all curled up
Sitting in a little corner motionless without anyone
Time has passed and I am ready now for somebody new
Desperate for someone to love, to be loved.
Back and forth I have walked nonstop
With music I tried to clear this feeling
Counted sheep but did not fall asleep
Pain this is not, loneliness it might be.
The presence of God, I don't feel tonight
Someone to hold me close is what I urge
Awake from this dream hoping we may cross
Sharing all the love we have to offer.
Almost sunrise, I no longer sit alone in the corner
In search of soul mate, we must believe and have faith
At first sight, our folded hands will be together
The long wait is worth it, for good things take time.
Acceptance We Shall Receive
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Standing before modern times yet living by the old rules
Trying to extend our suppressed hands yet can not reach.
A miracle has bought us closer together
A misfortune has come to separate us apart.
For chance and fate we were meant to be
But tradition and society need to debate
Forced to be apart yet closer we are
Heaven we seek and acceptance we shall receive.
SNOW FALLING
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Snow lightly scatter over the winter grass as sharp winds pass through
Extending my hands to touch each falling flake, cold yet brings warmth
These snow flakes protect the grass for rebirth in the coming Spring
Every flake is special, but all disappear suddenly in my palms
As the night near, freezing snow transform these moutains to pure white heaven
I smile as I watch tiny little pieces of snow fall peacefully from up above
Once again,I hold them close as if they were part of me hoping they last forever
Finally no warm air left within me as I lay motionlessly covered by the snow flakes that I love
2002 WINTER IN BROOKLYN
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Awake by the cold winter air, I hide under my heavy blanket.
Old radiator loudly heats my tiny room momentarily, still not warm.
Constant noises coming through the window, a guard dog and an ambulance.
Sitting on top of this broken mattress, not able to sleep.
These white walls with stains, is this my prison?
Unbearable smells strike me everywhere I turn, mainly kitcen and bathroom.
Strange faces stand before me as I walk out of my box, angry and depressed.
Without a word, I pass these people I should call housemates.
I sink my body into a cold shower, limited water slowly drip.
Looking around the house, I do not recoginze this place.
Thinking back to last year, didn't I have my own large luxury apartment?
By week's end, I had adjusted to the cold frigid air.
Listening to my favorite songs with my walkman, no longer hear dogs barking.
Nothing interrupts me as the music calm my nerves and warms my heart.
I lie comfortably on a new mattress finishing off this paragraph.
Every hour I look over at the old pictures of family and friends on my window
I have also accustomed to the kitchen smell, it feels like home now.
Each face standing before me has a name, character and story just like mine.
I smile and acknowlege their existence now, even chat with them after work.
Cold showers aren't even that bad anymore, hopefully landlord will fix that.
Realizing how good my life was before has made me strive harder in my life.
Only now do I truely appreciate everything I had before, nothing if forever.
THE ONLY ONE
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Far or near, you can appear
Tall or short, you can mature
Ugly or cute, I won't dispute
Manor or tent, I won't object
Everything or Nothing, we are something
Like that hunger thrumbing me sharply
Like the rainbow flashing me blindly
Like that scent drawing me slowly
Like the candy relishing me sweetly
Like that voice awaking me repeatedly
With you, I am full with no pain
With you, I see many many colors
With you, I have the power of smell
With you, I taste the surrounding air
With you, I can finally fall asleep
I hope you emerge as I waited eternally
You do exist because we have met
I saw you but did you notice me?
My heart raced wild as did yours
You are forever the only one, maybe so.
The Unknown War
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East to West, as well as North to South
Deadly sin has begun to spread coast to coast
Spears to swords, guns to canons, even mines to nuclear weapons
Justice and power I shall seek from you today
The harder I fight, the angrier I will become
I will not end or give up until it is the end
As strong as I am, I have lost some of my own
You too have casualties, so many of your people
Grandfather, fathers, sons even grandmothers, mothers and daughters
Now neither you or I can remember who started this bloody war
1, 2, 3, 4, 5 and counting, but they are not just numbers
For now both you and I wish this began differently
All Alone In This World
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Turn Left, she is gone
Turn right, he is gone
Look back, they were here
Look forward, I am alone
Yesterday was the old century
Today is the real world
Tomorrow is the new future
Tomorrow awaits today, forget yesterday
Grandpa, Grandma, where are they?
Mom, Dad, where are they?
Brother, Sisters, where are they?
Sons and Daughters, Where are they?
Model-T, I can still remember
PAN-AM, I have flew once
Online Chatting, I never imagined
Human Cloning, I just imagined
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