MY LITTLE STORY
I was born in 1951 in Helsinki, but was adopted
after two weeks to the countryside of Finland. I
had no siblings and I grew up alone with my loving
foster-parents. Our home was poor but happy.
Occasionally I missed a sister or a brother, but my
foster-mother wasn't able to get children.
Afterwards I found out that I had 4 siblings after
my real mother. I never met her because she died
before I started to take contact to my siblings.
I've met all of them and nowadays we meet now and
then, but I don't identify them as my siblings
because I haven't grown up in same family.
I've been Transvestite from the beginning of my
life or as long as I'm able to remember. My first
memory is at the age of 4 or 5 . We were playing
with the children of our neigbourgs and one of them
wanted to dress me up as a girl. They put on me a
beautiful flower-dress and everyone said that I
looked like a girl because I had long and brown
hair and I was very slender. And of course I had a
great feeling too. That day I realised that I was
different than other boys. I had a secret. Through
the youth years I went like other boys althought I
dressed up to my mother's (
I call her as a mother,
because she is the only and loving mother I've ever
had ) dress
occasionally ( as a
matter of fact very seldom ). Those
dresses looked terrible on me because I've always
been very thin
(good) and my
mother has always been inclined to stoutness.
After my military service I came back to
Helsinki and entered into my first marriage. My
first wife never knew about me, because I hadn't
courage enough to tell her. The great fire flashed
to me when she was working late one evening and I
got a strong desire to dress up to her black,
beautiful and sexy night-gown. I really can't
describe the feeling I had. I was totally
physically aroused. Since that moment I've known
that I'm transvestite the
rest of my life and nothing in the world
could change that. I started to by my own feminine
clothes and dressed up to them freuently when I was
alone at home.
After a few years marriage we divorced and I met
my present wife. I hided my secret from her about
10 years. On those days we had serious problems in
our marriage because I was so deep in my
transvestism. I started to avoid my wife in the
bedroom and I was very near of divorce again. One
friday evening I decided to tell her everything. I
took a bath ( Actually I
was in SAUNA ... you know that
hot - not the hell - Finnish
place, where we sit naked and throw water to the
bahthouse stove. Nobody else than Finnish people
can understand this ) and couple of
beers I ventured to tell her the whole story. My
wife listened quietly, took a silent moment and
just asked - is that all? She knew that I had a big
secret, but she never thought that it was
transvestism.
Since that evening we got another start of our
marriage. Afterwards we had long conversations
about this subject and she was really curious to
know more about me and my secret. I tried to tell
her as much as I was able to do.
After that evening I started new totally
differerent and wonderful period of my life. I
started to dress up to my feminine look more often
and my wife supported me a lot in it. She helped me
to choose my clothes and was encouraging me from
the beginning of our new life. Still it took three
years more after I got persuaded her to come out
and meet other Finnish TV-girls. It happened in
1995 in
TransHelsinki-event
and I was very exited (my wife too) when I was
driving first time my car in feminine look. I
looked around to see if someone could regonize me,
but it wasn't necessary. That evening was one of
the finest evenings I ever had my entire life.
After that evening we started to meet other TV's
and their spouses more often and nowadays we are
often seen married couple among Finnish
TV-community. In a short time we became friends
with many Finnish transvestites like Helena, Helga,
Melissa, Tia, Tiga, Marja, Hanna and many many
other Finnish T-girls. Forgive me girls if I don't
metion all of you. :-).
I'm very happy to tell you that I have no limits
to dress up at home because my wife loves very much
my feminine side and look too and I'll do it almost
every day in some form but of course I don't do it
perfectly. I'm also sleeping mainly in womens sexy
nightgowns and sometimes I use suspender and
stockings to complete the feeling under the
nightgown too.
However sometimes it feels great to relax ( like
holidays ) and take distance from womans
role and let beard to grow, get dressed to old
sweat pants and put legs to the table.
It would be a tragic scene
to you if you happened to see me then.
:-) Otherwise its really great after that return
back to the feminine role too.
My feninine wardrobe is nowadays very large as
you can see browsing my picture galleries. It
contains big collection of "street clothes" because
I'll get out in the public and I'll try to look "as
normal woman" as I able to do. Of course my
wardrobe contains large collection sexy and
"unnormal" clothes, which I use when I'm home or at
our summer gottages.
As you can see I'm a fetish too. One of my
favorites in private is
wet
look. It feels really great
(sexually
exciting) to take shower in womens
clothes and feel the touch of wet skirt against the
skin. Its also great go to swim wearing long thin
skirt or dress etc. I like rubber and pvc too, but
its really warm job to use rubber and thats why I
don't use it very often.
Finally I like to tell you that I'm not planning
to change my sex or try to live as a
full-time-woman. I am a male and I want to live as
a man the rest of my life. And I can tell you it's
very comfortable to return to male's role after
every plesant femine period. Of course I'm also
transvestite the rest of my life and nothing could
change that too.
I thank you that you had patience to read my
story. It's only a short version of me and my life,
but essentially important is said in these words.
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