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In Memory of Les Who tragicaly took his own life.... You gave so much of yourself to those you loved You were my inner strength Words alone could never convey the emptiness you have left within me... Or the internal scream that never leaves me when I found you...
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I am amidst a nightmare Athough I'm not asleep The image-just suspened there In haunt will always keep
The door across the side From that where I were standing Obscureed my thought in hide To conscious understanding
For that which were in front of me At time was not made clear In disbelief it could not be Although you were so near
I wondered why you did not speak Why you did not stir Until I heard a death-like shriek From deep within occur
Distant voices of distorted proof Filled time and space between Detachment from the voice of truth Bellowed o'er the internal scream
This nightmare is reality It's here with me each day Imprinting doubts of sanity The price each day I pay
I want so much to tell you The hell you've put me through For you to reassure me And say 'none of it was true'
But now I have to live Each day with now your passing Searching for a hope a light To the greyness it is casting. |
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Death pulses an unearthly beat It creeps within your core Exists in time of sleep Each moment forevermore
At night I lie awake In comfort of a light Darkness is too high a stake To risk within the night
Shadows flicker-sounds that creep Images and voices in my head Disturbing shifts that deny you sleep Memories that feed you now with dread
Altered flashbacks in rapid succession Come and go at will Silent whispers of thanks and confession Feeling your presence still
Panic stricken-it now immobilises But leaves a stream of tears As now my mind realises You're not part of future years
Your death came unpredicted So sudden in its claim Wounded scars-conflicted Will life ever be the same? |
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Time ticks by reflecting That which I did not know-then Inkling to something yet not connecting The image that later faced me-WHEN
Could never have envisaged the sight In my wildest imaginative mind Nothing could have instilled such fright As the memory continues to rewind
The phone must have echoed around your flat Where no life could hear my call You suspended at precisely-that Positioned behind your kitchen wall
And I went about my usual morning In oblivion to that unknown Nothing really giving me warning To that-which would later be shown
Did your neighbours pass your door? Unaware of your horrific sight Spared from the image I saw That took your final light
What was your last consideration? What words did you cry alound-in vain? How long did you spend in hesitation Agonising in suffering and pain
Did memories flood your mind? Before you took your last Knowing you'll never find The emptiness you've now cast
And where do you find yourself now? Do you haunt our surrounding space? Wishing you could turn back the hour To our welcoming warm embrace. |
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The phantom of a Priestess
The phantom of my imagery bestows a gift to me
Through movement that instils my soul endorse my eyes to see
The veil that envelops through layers of shadowed mist
Reveals itself a guise portrays what now I can’t resist
A movement that sweeps o’er me in wonderment fulfils
The essence of divine I sense in haunt she now reveals
Priestess she haunts in travel through the essence of my soul
Recapturing a spell recreation of herself thru me she sees her role
Her movements flow in rhythm A Dance she now begins
Takes on instinctive movements in whispers now she sings
Her web she weaves throughout me I now take on her form
Outpouring rush floods now my core taking me by storm
Desires of her deep passion intrigue my sense to find
Tis me she lives thru mortal life impressed upon unconscious mind. |
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Why did you never reveal to me Just how bad it got Did you hope that I'd foresee Put end to your death wish plot
Did I fail to miss the warnings To engrosed within my own life Fall short to hear your callings To notice your distress and strife
Did you ever think to deliberate? When ever we made chat Or purposely chose to confiscate My chance to save the act
God only knows I can relate To the torment you felt within But now left knowing-its to late The choice you made-you win
Why did you never stop to think? Just how much pain you'd cause Why did you let yourself then sink If only you stopped to pause
To give some thought to those you cared And those who loved you too Together then we could have shared And maybe still had you. |
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