I think anyone who could stand reading my story from beginning to end, would see the the transformation I have gone through. I think in the very beginning I was happy, enjoying the chase, fucking like crazy. However I started relying on girls for my happiness, fucking them was how I got all my pleasure. Sure sex feels good, but as I stated at the end...rely on yourself to be happy. Thanks to Cybersexgirl, I learned important things about loving unconditionally and giving. I think Biker Girl taught me to rely on myself for happiness, being friends, and not allowing yourself to try to change people to be as you may want them to be - living with imperfection, and being happy with what you have. But I have learned you have to be happy with yourself, you and your feelings are priorities.

Good luck,
the Tokyo Nights Guy

Update 10/4/99
Well things are different. I am in the US now. Biker girl is coming to stay with me for a little over a week. I have invited her to stay an live with me if she wants. However now I have a new problem. I want to fuck other girls again.

But I have kind of committed myself to biker girl. Even though she may not like what I have done recently, I did it. I have to live with myself and I don't want to feel bad. I think I took care of business and I felt better. What else can I do?

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